About seven months ago, I was working creatively with clay at my kitchen table when I felt something hit my forehead. Thinking it was a mosquito or some other annoyance, I brushed it away, only to realize that it had run for cover toward my left ear. For hours, I kept asking my husband to look into my ear, to make sure nothing was in there. I felt a vibrating inside my ear, but only every 20 minutes or so. I would later find out from my doctor that the creature was drilling into my inner ear, probably looking for a way out.
In the midst of my growing unease at not knowing what was inside me, we called a nurse from our insurance hotline. She recommended flushing it out with warm olive oil. So, being the loving husband that he is, he flushed it out. Out ran a medium-sized black spider, which my husband promptly smashed. [Note: Many tears and panic shrieks followed.]
I have been looking back on this event for months, wondering what Spider wanted with me. I have long been a knitter, so maybe there was a kinship with my weaving of fabrics? Another person suggested that spiders enter your life to make you get rid of your fears. This also made sense. Today, though, I found a website called Shamanic Journey that gave me much-needed insights.
“When the spider enters our awareness, it is asking us to rebuild the web of our life in accordance with the design the creator gave us.” -Ina Woolcott, Shamanic Journey
This sentence in particular hit a chord with me. Spider entered my ear just when I was walking away from a career, just as I was making choices about the life I want. I strongly believe now that Spider was encouraging me to weave my own life, to rebuild it into the life that allows me to flourish while doing the work of my soul purpose.
“They awaken our intuitive, creative senses and encourage us to design the fabric of our lives from our soul’s original intention.” -Ina Woolcott, Shamanic Journey
I certainly have had an intuitive awakening since Spider entered my ear. I can hear my own gut’s reactions; I can tell when I’m wondering off the path my soul intended; I feel Divine protection. My creative senses seem reawakened as well, as I have been painting again and my dreams have been vivid.
So for all you knitters and weavers of life out there, may every encounter of Spider remind you of your connection to the larger picture. May you see the eight legs and round eight-shaped body as your connection to infinity. May you have the vision of the Weaver, easily seeing your connection to past and present. May we remember the gentle nature of Spider. May we all see the eternal plan of creation.
* This image is of a current WIP (Work in Progress). It is from a Yarnbox pattern called Impressionist Daubs Shawlette and is in the Patons Lace yarn. It seems to capture the act of creating/weaving that Spider does.